As a working mom, I have been trying to fast track myself up the "ladder" at work and I rationalize that it will make me feel less guilty being away from my children all day if I am successful and making more money. But in this process I have become a 'work horse'. I work all day, I rarely take lunches. If it wasn't for the fact that some of my co-workers have become friends, I would have no social outlet at all there. So it becomes a lot of giving with no real receiving. And I continue to feel the guilt. But then I have days like today, where I finish the bulk of a project I have been putting in long hours on, and I realize how great I feel. I feel no guilt right now. I feel pride. I know that I am a good contributor at my company and that I do the best job I possibly can. And I make it a point to be completely present with my kids when I am home, even if I sometimes fail at that.
I do have to become a bit more unplugged this year. I have to recognize that achievement isn't always tangible. And I have to take more vacations. True, away from it all, not holiday related vacations.
If I can push myself to quit bad habits, become a runner, and balance it all, then I think I can push myself into actually taking it easy. 2010 = the year of the tortoise, not the hare.
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nice post. thanks.
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